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Name Balarama Das Fornes-Joshi
AKA Bhela
Birth 08/26/1980 (38 yrs old)
Gender Unknown
Other ContactsBahut lonely berkley nerd...kripayaa email bhejiye...
LocationUC Berkeley CA 94720 US of A
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Part of my 'being'Every unit of energy from the smallest particle of matter
My 'being' contd.To the most complex arrangement of consciousness
My physical family Everyone of you beautiful Forn(icating)es-Joshis out there!
My physical friendsAll you Kulis from Vrindavan...You are all Vrajbasi 'diamonds in da rough'!
My 'causal' friendsEach of you who is/was/will be a catalyst in da manifestation of da love within
I love how under the options for 'gender', there is 'unknown'...I'm sure this will be well appreciated by everyone with ambiguious 'gender'! LOL

Self-discovery begins with the process of identification with the 'real' you. So, who are you? Go down the list of all the things you can think of and you'll never really settle for anything on any list ever made because who you are is not a function of thoughts, thought processes or the rational mind rather it is a function of experience - experience of reality from the perspective of the 'real' you. And subsequently what happens to another person in your presence is the function of who you are and not what you know!

It is ironic that this process begins with the 'dis-imprinting' of the mind from all the constructs of the 'ego' by the mind. It is the lineal perception of reality from the screening of the 'ego' that keeps us from freeing the consciousness of repetitive thought patterns influencing our daily interactions. This 'de-construction' of the imprinting of the ego on the consciousness is the most difficult yet exciting. That is the function of Haraa, and precisely why 'Hare' is repeated so many times in the mahamantra. It is Haraa that 'strips away the lineal perception of the ego' which is like the shifting of clouds from the surface of the sun on a cloudy day revealing the luminous energy of the sun which corresponds to the true identity of the soul and that is Krishna! He is 'all-attractive' from the attraction of the smallest unit of energy in the cell to the attraction of the most convoluted brain circuits which in turn create such complex consciousness. 'He is in everything and everything is in Him'. Remember, you are one and different, so, only when you are able to see the unity of it all can you move on to the difference. Once one sees the unity which is 'Krishna' in everything, then one can move on to Rama...the effortless play of witnessing the transformation of ones consciousness and the different levels of transformation it goes through without getting attached to any one particular platform.

There is a shift in the consciousness of self (COS) on autopilot where sensual perceptions embedded within the experience of the environment are explicit while the individual characterized by the content is implicit to COS as the subject where the content and attitude of the individual is explicit and COS as the object where the content, attitude and the self are all explicit. Descartes hints to this unique ability of the self to shift from the subject to the object of cognition.

This is the way of the Yogi. He revels in the journey of the transformation of consciousness from innocence to innocence (the sun is always the sun whether or not it is covered by clouds) while completely immersed in Sadhana from the perceptual vantage point of pure awareness. From this vantage point, there is only welcoming, embracing and surrendering to this moment. When there is nonresistance to what is, there comes peace. The portal is open to the 'unmanifested realm' like the calm waters of a lake covered by the ripples of the constantly changing 'manifested forms'. We can't call this surrender a practice because it is not in time. Within this paradigm of reality, there is no past or future, just the 'eternal' present.

Transcending the world does not mean to withdraw from the world, to no longer take action, or to stop interacting with people. Transcendence means to act without seeking to enhance one's sense of self through one's actions or one's interactions with people. Ultimately, it means not needing the future anymore for one's fulfillment or for one's sense of being. There is no seeking through doing. When that seeking isn't there anymore, then you can be in the world but not be of the world and then 'complete involvement and no attachment' becomes an expression of your being.

"Love your neighbors as yourself", Jesus said. It is impossible to fulfill that commandment, no matter how hard you try, if you don't know who you are at the deepest level. Love your 'kuli' as yourself means your 'kuli' IS yourself,(different rays of the same sun) and that recognition of oneness is love... Amen! True integration of all races, classes, cultures and genders and an end to the discontent in society can only come about when there is this sort of psychological shift in identity because the problem is not an ontological one but rather the displacement of identity and the seeking of fulfillment in the fleeting reservoir of mental 'noise'. Therefore Baba Ram dass says, "Quieten the mind, and open the heart" (quite effective when used as a contemplative chant...really!!!)

Yet, on the other hand, if the passages above on questions of identity and purpose don't rock your boat and sound like "grammatical fiction" then take God out of the equation like Nietzsche did! Nietzsche oscillates between two seemingly contradictory concepts of the 'will to power' and 'eternal recurrence.' The 'ubermensche' is faced with this paradox which, on one hand is to live every moment so that you could will that moment over and over again eternally yet the cosmic cycle of recurrence is indifferent to all human willing. Nietzsche had quite a religious upbringing, yet he was among the first to denounce a metaphysical explanation to the quest for identity and purpose.

"The eternal hourglass of existence is turned upside down again and again, and you with it, speck of dust!"

Under the disguise of fatalistic nihilism, Nietzsche expresses a profound and unreserved embrace of what he commonly refers to as 'Amor fati', love of fate. (sound familiar?...sounds very much like the concept of surrender!) This apparent paradox stems from the concept of "complete involvement and no attachment" - Karma yoga from the Gita. Nietzsche's problem of 'will to power' vs. 'Amor Fati' can be resolved by taking time out of the equation. If he can go beyond good and evil, then why not time? It is a constant struggle of being 'eternally present' and stripping the 'willing' of 'seeking'. Life becomes a form of Art- the aesthetic life and in Nietzsche's own words the 'stylish' life oscillating between different art forms like an actor role-playing and a musician living out mini lives through different concertos. Nietzsche demonstrated this aesthetic conviction himself by a kaleidoscopic alternations in authorial personalities -classicist, French moralist, nihilist, prophet, madman.

I would like to end this introspection with a passage from Emerson's 'Essay on Self Reliance'. "These roses under my window make no reference to former roses or to better ones; they are for what they are; they exist with God today. There is no time to them. There is simply the rose; it is perfect in every moment of its existence... But man postpones or remembers; he does not live in the present, but with reverted eye laments the past, or heedless of the riches that surround him, stands on tiptoe to foresee the future. He cannot be happy and strong until he too lives with nature in the present, above time.'

I just wanted to send a shout-out to everyone I love in India...hope you know who you are!...I miss India very much...been away for too long... I might be coming over for kartik next year...will be doing a study abroad program from berkeley...thik hai?...chal phir milte hai...
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